It was inspiration!
I hope you will understand me:
I the soldier deprived of the past and the future. For me there is only a present: today, now. I can roam about the
world till the end of my days. Only the sun will heat me, only the moon will love me, only my sword will be to me the
friend.
I had everything heart could wish that: a title, riches, a beloved. But one night has deprived of me it; the night which
has been lit up by burning light of a big fire, has taken away that that was my heart, my happiness, my love, my future,
having given up as a bad job our dreams. Everything that it is necessary to me – to bury the feelings under the ice
armor which has covered mine I smother also heart, trying to rescue them from a burning pain of loss, and to give to
oblivion my grief. And only peonies, same gentle and fragile as my beloved, are capable to remind that was, and volume
that I have lost.
Now my eyes exhale force and power which usual people not to understand. Weaklings, whose soul is corroded by defects,
can despise me or even to hate, can expel from this the pity world full of spiritual poverty in which live; to me all
the same, after all I above it.
My sight is stuck into the enemy like a dagger, depriving of his aspiration to a victory and ????????? his body
desperate horror. The cold steel doesn't forgive … As well as I …
For me doesn't exist any more neither a grief, nor happiness, neither love, nor hatred. There is ????????????? a
melancholy which end will be put by only my death. My dream is unattainable now, as the moon that now shines my way.
Eternal wanderings – here my destiny …
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