Pathetic ? Hell no ! .....ok. You wanted to hear it ? Yes. However, if we don't fall once in a while, how can we ever know our strengths we have had in us all the time and learn from our weakness to better ourselves, right ? To tell you the truth, most ppl are like this. No, it is not pathetic. Just easily distracted. :)
Your Shadow needs alot of work. As does your Blending. It's very glaring. Add some texture. Your color composition is low. It's very plain. That's why i cannot see much of your brushes you claim to have used. Just a bit more. Sorry if i sound harsh but i rather you learn then wrong yourself further on.
Overall, i think you need a rework. Serious. Period. Don't be discouraged. At least I comment to help out. Well, i don't know if its a blessing or misfortune for you, i just can't help it to see a suppose beautiful work of an artist AND friend going downhill. ;)
Gambatte ! I'm sure more will help you here.
Nice Terragen Landscape. XD was it ?